I remember clearly the year God drew me to the place of absolute surrender and humility. A season where I knew that I was not in control. A time when I was being challenged to open my hands and let go. Did I really believe that God was good and that I could trust Him?
Surender and humility are often required when God allows circumstances in our lives that expose the reality that we are not in control. I face these dificult situations with deep conviction that in God’s economy nothing is wasted.
“Dill is not threshed with a threshing sledge, nor is a cart wheel rolled over cumin, but dill is beaten out with a stick, and cumin with a rod, Does one crush grain for bread? No, he does not thresh forever; when he drives his cart wheels over it with his horses, he does not crush it. This also comes from the Lord of hosts; he is wonderful in counsel and excellent in wisdom." (Isaiah 28: 23-29)
What I see is that God does what is necessary to make me useful. We have walnut trees. I use the walnuts, but only if I remove the hull. In the same way I believe that I am only useful to God with a humble heart. Sometimes it's a painful process, but I trust God because he is,"wonderful in counsel and excellent in wisdom."
Somewhere during the time of praying for a heart of absolute surrender and humility my focus shifted. I began to say, "Lord, glorify yourself." My prayer was a reflection of John the Baptist when he said, "He must increase and I must decrease."
When I go outside on a dark starry night I can see the stars best if there is no artificial light shinning. This is what I am finding as I pray for humility. When the artificial light of my own pride is taken out of the way, others have a better opportunity of seeing Christ in me.
Lord Jesus, I want my life to be useful for Your Kingdom. I want to decrees and have You increase. I want to see Your glory!
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