Thursday, August 2, 2012

Where Mercy Found Me

"What did he say!?!" I had asked my pastor to pray for me before I went to be a speaker for a week at camp. As I stood before the congregation I heard him pray, "Lord as You sent the Gadarene demoniac back to his home town to tell of Your mercy to him, we send Sarah to tell of Your mercies to her." It was a humbling prayer but it made me stop and think about the mercies I have received.

When I was eighteen and all my friends were leaving home to go off to college I was in a mental hospital. When I was released I was deeply confused and terribly frightened that I would have no future. That's where mercy found me. At first it is was only a small flicker of light but I followed that light and found hope. Hope that taught me to put my trust and confidence in a God who loves me.

I also remember watching as the small coffin that contained my baby was lowered into the earth. The dark cloud of grief threatened to smother me. That's where mercy found me. At first it was only a small flicker of light but I followed that light and found hope. Hope that taught me to put my trust and confidence in a God who loves me.

There were times when the consequences of my failures seemed far to great a burden to bear. All I wanted to do was to give up. I wanted to find a place to hide. That's where mercy found me. At first it was only a small flicker of light but I followed that light and found hope. Hope that taught me to put my trust and confidence in a God who loves me.

Lord, my life has been filled with Your mercy and grace. Thank You for the reminder that the only thing I have to give is what You've given me. Please allow me to be someone who shares Your mercy with others. Let me go into the dark places of life holding high Your light so that I might share with others the hope I have found in You.

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